Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Wildest Moments

My girl told me this morning that, during her first round in outpatient rehab, she would listen to the song below and think of our relationship. I think it's a beautiful song.

"Wildest Moments" by Jessie Ware

I shared a wild moment with her yesterday-she graduated from her halfway house! I'm so incredibly proud of her! She begged me to take her away from there when she arrived, and it hurt so badly to see her in pain. But she stuck it out and really invested in the program. The women in her house talked about her cheerful spirit, tough work ethic, and how she reached out to newcomers and made them feel welcome. It was tough for her, I know, but I'm proud of her efforts and I think some beautiful things came about as a result. She's now in her own apartment a few blocks from work. She is getting promoted, something I expected but am glad her work is being affirmed and rewarded. So many good things are happening at once, it's making my head spin. Sleeping with her again for the first time in about 9 months was so profoundly sweet and stressful at the same time. Her therapist at the house encouraged me to go to Nar-Anon, and I found a meeting very close to my new apartment so I will try to go to the next meeting. I am feeling the strong emotional pull to be with her constantly but I know that could lead to enabling and emotional dependency, not to mention my poor cat will go crazy if I leave him alone.

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